Wow, what a week I have had! I feel so much older and wiser, and yet dumber than ever at the same time! I am so lucky to be here. The spirit is literally so thick you could slice it with a knife (you are right Sis, you should be way jealous!). Everything about the MTC is just a life changing experience.
My companionship is getting better and better. I have had one goal this week: whenever I get frustrated, or angry, or annoyed, or offended I ask myself, 'what am I doing wrong.' I've learned that it is you who chooses to make those situations negative. You will never be able to change another person, nor should you. But you can change yourself, and I can tell you all I have already changed for the better. What a life-altering realization.
The MTC is busy and hectic and I am learning more than I ever thought possible. There are a lot of rules, and you certainly can't do whatever you want. That's ok though, I've spent 24 years doing whatever I want. I think I can take a break from me right now. One of my favorite sayings in the world now is S-O-C-K-S, or in spanish 'eso si que es' which translates to 'That's the way it is.' LOVE IT.
I know to all of you I haven't been gone that long. However, I feel like I have been gone FOREVER! I wasn't kidding when I told you that days feel like weeks and weeks feel like hours. Most of the time I think I just got here, but I can barely remember what it is like to live a normal life! I love it though, and I wouldn't trade it for anything right now.
Have I mentioned to you that being in a tripanionship is HARD!!!!? It is. I love both of my companions and we all have very different strengths and weaknesses (that we are finally starting to use to our advantage) but it is so hard to deal with two minds, feelings, and ideas besides the thousands that you yourself have! I was asked to take over as Senior Companion this coming Sunday and will be for the next three weeks. I really don't know how to feel about it. I though that was what I wanted. But I had no idea how nice it was to only have to worry about how I was doing at any given moment. Have I mentioned that girls are also very emotional? I know it will be a great learning experience though; for me and my companions.
Spanish is coming, slowly but surely. My teacher told me the other day that I was ahead of most of my class, but I still feel like an idiot! I can tell you this though: Yo se mi Padre Celestial as muy amoroso y sobre Dios mi familia es eterna. Yo se que Jose Smith restaurdo el evangelio en los ultimos dias. Yo se que esto evangelio es verdadero con todo mi corazon. (This is not grammatically correct Spanish but it says: I know that my Heavenly Father is very loving and through God my family is eternal. I know that Joseph Smith restored this gospel in these latter days. I know that this gospel is true with all my heart.)
Love, Hermana Levanger
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